TENDERNESS I (81h, 8d, 2015-04-10 / 2015-04-18)

SILK, WOOL, BRAZILWOOD, PAINT, THREAD, ZIPPER

TENDERNESS I

 

I LISTEN DEEPLY

WHILE YOUR LIPS PART AND DESCEND

INTO SUBTLETY.

 

DISCOVERING HOW

 SWEETNESS DISTILLS FROM THE PAIN

OF UNVEILED SHADOWS.

 

THE CHOICE TO CHOOSE MAY

NOT BE POSSIBLE WHILE YOUR

 SOUL HANGS FROM A HOOK.

 

FOR TRUE TENDERNESS

WILL UNDERSTAND THE CONFLICT

OF WHAT WE WANT MOST.

 

SO I CONTINUE

BREAKING MY HEART FOR THE ONES

WHO BROKE IT OPEN.

 

 

 

COURAGE I (97h, 10d, 2015-05-30 / 2015-06-11)

SILK, MALLOW BLOSSOMS, INK, THREAD, BUTTONS, ELASTIC

COURAGE I

 

DOUBT COMES EASILY.

GRADATIONS OF DENIAL

NURTURE THE STRUGGLE.

 

MY SEEKING SOUL MUST

LINGER IN UNCERTAINTY,

THE CONSTANT UNKNOWN.

 

ACCEPTING MY FEAR

I JUMP INTO THE ABYSS,

SWALLOW SURRENDER.

 

COURAGE MANIFESTS

WHILE FORGETTING HIDDEN HOPES

AND DARING GREATLY.

 

AN INVITATION

OF ESSENTIAL DISCOMFORT.

MY HEROINE UNVEILED

 

 

 

VULNERABILITY I (64h, 7d, 2015-08-09 / 2015-08-15)

SILK, COCHINEAL, INK, THREAD

VULNERABILITY I

 

SO NOW I SIT IN

THIS ESSENTIAL DISCOMFORT.

TRYING TO TAKE SPACE.

 

I IMAGINED PAIN,

BUT FIND MYSELF BATHED IN A

SLIGHT, STINGING SHIVER.

 

SHIVERING DOES NOT

CAUSE AGONY. WE SHAKE SO

OUR SOUL SKIN CAN SWELL.

 

WITH WILD PATIENCE I

ALLOW MYSELF TO BE SEEN.

FEEL MY HEART POUNDING.

 

I WANT YOU TO WATCH

THE SKELETON WITHIN ME

AS SHE UNTANGLES.

 

 

 

 

I CREATE HOUSES FOR MY BODY. HOUSES FORMED FROM CLOTH WITH THE INTENTION OF MAKING TACTILE SPACE FOR EMOTION. THE FABRIC IS PATTERNED WITH CURVILINEAR DEPICTIONS OF WHAT I IMAGINE EACH EMOTION TO ENCOMPASS. THE COLORS ARE STEEPED FROM DYE COMPOSITIONS OF HEARTWOOD, FLOWER BLOSSOMS AND FEMALE INSECTS.  I BEGIN TO WEAR THE GARMENT THE SAME DAY IT IS COMPLETE.

MY INTENTIONS MANIFEST ONLY AS THE WEARING PERSISTS, SO I TAKE TIME TO FEEL ALL THE PAIN AND ALL THE SWEETNESS DAY AFTER DAY.  I MUST FACE MY MISCONCEPTIONS SO I GRIEVE APATHY AND SURRENDER TO THIS WORN REPETITION. WRINKLES, DARNING, AND SWEAT PROVE THIS RITUAL TAKES COMMITMENT. THEY ARE THE PHYSICAL EVIDENCE OF MY INTERNAL DISCOVERIES. TIME PASSES AS IT ALWAYS DOES; YET I REMAIN IN THE SAME CLOTH. I WATCH THE GARMENTS DETERIORATE AS QUICKLY AS MY ILLUSIONS. I REMEMBER HOW TO FEEL WITH MY WHOLE HEART AND SLOWLY BECOME THE ONE I AM WAITING FOR. AND ONLY THEN, AFTER WASHING THE FIBERS OF MY BEING, DO I SHED THE EXHAUSTED CLOTH. I CREATE ANOTHER HOUSE AND BEGIN AGAIN.

 

PHOTOGRAPHY BY LACEY McLAUGHLIN

OPENING RECEPTION FOR AIR CYCLE 6 EXHIBITION, SKY GALLERY NYC 1 OCTOBER 2015

OPENING RECEPTION FOR AIR CYCLE 6 EXHIBITION, SKY GALLERY NYC

1 OCTOBER 2015